My Heart

hi guys, hehehe. I've been writing twice to update my blog today... Rajinnya.I should be serious by now, ok... Today, right now, i want to tell you guys and also to share what i've been through in my relationship...and yes, i have to say in a relationship especially between girl and boy - companionship. Me and him had been together for years and yet we broke up twice when we were together. that Broke up was because of misunderstanding, miscommunication and a lot. For instance, he disturbed me a lot and i can't even focus on my study, he controlled me too much on what i can do and what i can't do. hmm... guys, i'd been trying to make difference in my relationship everytime we had a problem,we discussed, we shared, we laughed and yet in the middle we argued and silent for a quite sometime, but believe me making difference is not easy. Its not easy to change someone and sometimes we are the one who need to change instead of others.But i did change, there a lot of different between the past " Sharon" than the present " Sharon ". i loved him more, i showed so much love to him in term of words and actions. And he realized it too. do you want to know how was i long time ago when we were together in the first one and two years? i'm a bad girl, i admit. he can only heard me say "I love you " once in a blue moon. And when he said " i love you " i used to say " yes, i know... you don't have to say that all the time ". And he commented me that i was cool, too cool to love someone. well yeah, i was...



you see the love above? my heart had been through all of that. First, from a complete heart.



To this - a heart full of scars because of love.



To this - healing hearts.



yes, love is what you say it is. You say it sucks? yes it is. you say it sweet? yes, it is. You say it terrible? and yes it is! i talked and discussed with my mom today, we toled her about my relationship with my bf, i told what he did to me and i told what his mom said about me. And my mom felt so bad and i also told her that we'd broke up again and she said this time my decision is right. its correct... so long .... its good to be single again and yet its complicated.

Making A Dfference

guys, its the 10th January of 2010... Do you wish to make a difference in your life? its the 10th of 2010 but its not too late to make a difference, because nothing is too late until its over....Guys,according to the book i have shared in the previous page... Difference is the opportunity to take the time each day to acknowledge the beauty around us, to appreciate the amazing people who tough us, and to leave the world a better place each day through our thought, words and actions.. You know what i hope you and me are making difference each day by sharing ourself and our gifts with grace and ease with all those who come into my life...

So, here it goes the story in this book : ( i won't tell you the whole story ok? i mean from A to Z, but i'll summarize it and adapt it a little bit )

I've lived in New York city for all my seventeen years and can't imagine living anywhere else.
It was a cold November day, and New York City was still reeling from devastation of sepetember 11. All the members of my soccer team were glad to have an excuse to get out of school. It was the first game of the year and we had suffered a horrible defeat; still we were just excited to be starting a new season and a new year. We were twenty high-school girls walking and laughing through the streets of the Bronx. We knew we will having a long way to get home . To amuse ourselves and pass the time, we began to sing. Various genres of music filled the train's car, from Bob Dylan to Christina Aguilera . Eventhough only one of us could really sing, we all sang along as loudly as possible : what we lacked in musical talent we made up for on volume and enthusiasm. I wish i could freeze that moment: being with friends, feeling happy and not thinking about anything else.It was an amazing feeling that got even better as the train moved o.
suddenly, an old man entered the car from the subway platform, all our voices stopped simultaneously. The old man's clothes were tattered and his face was covered with a stubbly beard. \in his hand, he held a Styrofoam coffee cup emblazoned with " I Love NY". despite his shabby appearance, he carried himself with dignity. He spoke softly, but his voice projected through the car. " hello, ladies and gentlemen. I hope everyone is staying warm and healthy this winter. I am going to sing a couple of my favourite songs for you during your trip. please listen , and i hope you enjoy.". No one on the train looked u. Most people slid down behind their newspaper of foreign sleep but we girls watched him carefully. As his lips parted and began to sing " Joy to the World," we were carried away his eloquent voice and presence that we found ourselves chiming right in. After we had finish, we heard clapping and looked around to see that the people who had been in their own worlds a few moment before had now crossed over to ours to listen and marvel at this rare moment.and for his final song, he choose something that was sure to move everyone " God Bless America "
rag through the subway train and out of the station where we stopped. Many people left their own cars to come and see what was happening in ours - and join us. Many sang and this medley of voices and unity of spirit, was real and marvelous. Its significance became clearest to me when i noticed a woman holding a baby in her arms, singing through the tears that were streaming down her cheeks.
The power of this moment will be with me forever . A moment when a group of strangers, all New Yokers, tough and jaded, connected with a group of high-school girls and ragtag homeless person, and allowed their voices-and their hearts-to be as one.

The End.

Now guys, if you were there? would you do the same thing as the writer? really, Once we discover how to appreciate the timeless values in our daily experiences, we can enjoy the best things in life...This i personal reflection from the first story... So, make a different, to appreciate everything in our life from the small and useless values to th big and useful values...

2010 Inspiration

hi guys...
Its been so log that i didn't update my blog... Today, i don't know why i get up the nerve to write my blog again. i thought about sharing something that is very valuable to me - a book. A book that i'd bought ysterday and a book that i've been looking for so long...



This book a lovingly compiled and painstakingly profound work detailing the possibilities of the human spirit. It shoe us in story after story how we can make this world a better place-and not merely wish to do it.

Guys, do you think that a story in a book can change someone's thought , personalities ? that it can inspires you to be more happy, more confident and more caring. My answer is "YES" and if your answer is "No", then i suggest you yo stop reading this cause this is not what you trying to read... Why did i say so because even people have to depend on book to get knowledge so that they can be good in term of knowledge and upgrade themselves,so why can't a book's content change someone's thought in term of relationship?

I'm keen to read and buy this book because of my English teacher - Madam Mathilda, who had read some story inside this book that touched my heart deeply.... And, last night after i had read th introduction and acknowledgement of this book,i know i need this book.

I'm holding a very special book that i hope to carry its messages to you guys... I hope you guys can realize and forward the experience of reading to your friends....That you can use the inspiration, understanding and lovewithis these page to make your world a little bit better every day.

DAY 5 GOD IS LOVE

How can I be sure of God’s love?

We all know life can be harsh. Consequently, it may be difficult to look at our circumstances and conclude that God is a god of love. Perhaps you grew up in a broken home with little evidence of love -- possibly even abuse -- from your earthly father. You may have lost loved ones to illness, accident or war. In some areas of the world, poverty and famine are daily realities. Where is God's love in all this?

I believe God's heart aches more than we can ever know at the pain, suffering, injustice and difficulties all His children encounter, especially when you understand that most of it is the result of mankind turning away from Him. Sin's entrance into the world brought severe consequences. Yet from the onset of sin and its ravages, God had the remedy in mind.

That remedy was Jesus. While we were still caught up in sin, God sent His own Son to buy us back -- to "redeem" us. Here is the way Jesus describes the love of God:

God so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16 NIV).

The Apostle John also focused on God's love:

God is love. This is how God showed His love among us: He sent His one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him (1 John 4:8,9 NIV).

Oswald Chambers sums up the linkage between the cross and God's love:

The bedrock of our Christian faith is the unmerited, fathomless marvel of the love of God exhibited on the Cross of Calvary, a love we never can and never shall merit (March 7).

Billy Graham, in his recent book, The Journey, says, "The more I read the Bible, the more I realize that love is God's supreme attribute" (p. 22).

When you yielded your life to God and were born again, you came face to face with your heavenly Father's love. Now, as you continue your Christian journey, lean into that love, drawing deeply upon it. Immerse yourself in His love and care.

Here is a prayer, penned to the early church in Ephesus by the Apostle Paul, who wrote several letters to new believers that are recorded in the New Testament. You can make this prayer your own: "(that you may) know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God" (Ephesians 3:19).

Key Scripture God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son (John 3:16 NIV).
Key Thought God’s love for me has never wavered -- and it never will.

DAY 4 THE BIBLE: A WORD FOR ALL AGES

How am I doing on Day 4?

Can you confidently make the following statements?

* I am certain that by faith I have been born again -- I've come out of darkness into light. (Remember, our assurance is based on the fact of God's promise, not on how we feel.)
* My focus is on the here and now, not where I've been, and not on what the future holds.
* I have entered into a new and personal relationship with Jesus Christ. He loves me and He is changing me from the inside out.

We'll be coming back to these themes from time to time. Now, I want to introduce you to a book -- the Bible. It must become your friend and lifelong companion.

Words are important in any culture. They are how we communicate facts, ideas, instruction, encouragement and correction. It shouldn't surprise you that God will communicate with you by words. He even referred to Jesus, His Son, as "the Word" (See John 1).

The Bible consists of 66 books -- a collection of history, poetry, letters and the accounts of those from whom we can learn valuable lessons. It is the number one means by which you can learn who God is, how He wants you to live and how He will help you.

I didn't always view the Bible as this kind of companion. Before I committed my life to Jesus, I found it confusing, even mysterious. Part of the problem was that I tried to read it like any other book, from page 1. Soon, I got bogged down and put it aside.

After I became a believer, the Bible began to come alive. I started reading one of the four gospels in the New Testament on the advice of a friend and discovered a wonderful account of the life of Jesus. I found it very real, very transparent. I became aware that what I was reading was producing hope in me. I discovered lessons that applied to where I was right then. In fact, often what I would read each morning would apply directly to events happening that very day. More than once I recall saying, "That's amazing!"

If you have a Bible, great! If not, you can access one online at www.biblegateway.com. Try starting with Luke's gospel. Read a little each day. As you read, let the words speak to you, bringing some fresh insight, some new truth. Savor what God tells you through His word -- turning it over in your mind, allowing it to be a vital source of life. (Even though something is confusing, remember everything in the Bible is there for a purpose.)

Another good practice would be to look up the Bible references I mention in this study. This will help you become familiar with "navigating" through the Bible and to see the specific context for a particular verse or verses. (In this 30-day study, I've generally used the New King James Version of the Bible, unless otherwise noted -- such as "NIV" for the New International Version -- but feel free to find a version that is appropriate for you.)

As you know, in any kind of building project, the foundation is critical. For example, in the construction of a new high-rise building, the "unglamorous" work below ground must be done carefully. The foundation is no place to cut corners, even though this phase of construction can seem to take forever. Eventually, activity begins above ground and the building takes shape with remarkable speed. In the same way, your new life in Christ must be built on a solid foundation. The very best foundation is the Bible. Situations change, and friends come and go. But the Bible is "rock solid." Decide today to build your foundation on God's word, making it your lifelong companion.

Key Scripture Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly (Colossians 3:16).
Key Thought The Bible is more than a container for the word of God -- it is God speaking directly to me through the words I read.

DAY 3 GOD WORKS INSIDE OUT

What should I do first?

Early in our journey, we need to understand the vital distinction between religion and a relationship. Most of us have seen religion at work -- but the relationship we have with Jesus is much different. Religion tends toward the external. It is structural and rules-based. In contrast, our relationship should be personal, open, warm and liberating.

Jesus wants us to come to Him the way a little child comes to a loving parent. Anyone who has spent time around young children understands this imagery. My wife, Wendy, and I were always delighted when one of our six children would run up to us, arms outstretched for a hug -- then nestling in with their entire little bodies, completely at rest and filled with trust.

Can I ask you to do this right now? Just become a "little child" for a minute -- and come to Jesus as you would to a father or mother who deeply loves you. No requests. No expectations. You don't have to brush your teeth or comb your hair. Simply come to Him and nestle in. Stay in His presence. Experience His love for you.

Did you take time for this? Please don't go on until you do.

Let this childlike act become a lifelong habit. From that place of rest, trust and dependency you will experience the transforming power of the new life. "It is God who works in you both to will and to do for his good pleasure" (Philippians 2:13). His work is inside out, not outside in.

Sadly, many Christians have allowed religion to become a substitute for a relationship. It is an easy trap to fall into. You can get so busy "doing things for God" that you neglect the personal bond with Him.

Uncorrected, this "religious" tendency can actually become a spiritual liability. This was so in Jesus' day. Jesus reserved some of his harshest words for "professional believers" -- who became so bound with rules and regulations that their lives were consumed with hypocrisy and greed. They were blind to Jesus' desire for a relationship.

Make it your goal to stay childlike in your relationship with Jesus, even as you grow in knowledge, understanding and wisdom.

Key Scripture Come unto me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28).
Key Thought Jesus is a person. He wants a personal relationship with me.

DAY 2 BEGINNING THE JOURNEY

What can I expect on my journey?

Years ago, when our family would set out on a long car trip, we would be only a few miles down the road when one of our then small children would ask, "Daddy, are we there yet?"

As we begin our spiritual journey, let's not focus on how long the journey is. And let's not worry about what we'll encounter along the way, for in reality we don't know. Only God does. Rather, let us think about what's happening right now. Here are some key ideas:

* Just as you committed your life to Jesus, He has fully committed Himself to you. He promises: "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5). Jesus is with you all the time, regardless of your situation.
* Give up the idea of instant results. Spiritual growth doesn't happen overnight, it is a process. Look for small changes: meeting a new Christian friend; making a step to curtail an annoying habit; discovering a helpful insight from the Bible.
* Take your new life a day at a time, even moment by moment. A daily writing by Oswald Chambers, whose thoughts on the Christian life are found in a wonderful book called My Utmost for His Highest, says in his July 28 entry: "(God's) purpose is for this minute, not something in the future." Focus on where He is working in you, around you and through you right now.

Here is a caution, one we'll get into in more depth later. When Jesus was explaining the parable of the sower to His disciples (mentioned in the Introduction), He said, "The wicked one comes and snatches away what was sown in his heart" (Matthew 13:19). He was referring to the devil, or Satan -- your adversary who is always working against you.

Satan's tactic for the new believer is to pull you back from your newfound faith. He'll say: "This isn't real. You've just had an emotional experience." "You're going to lose all your friends." "Your fun days are over." It's a mental battle, and dealing with the adversary is a fact of your Christian life.

When Satan comes with doubts, fears and temptations, oppose him with words like these: "I am a child of God, redeemed from my old life by the Lord Jesus." Then pray for Jesus to help you. "Lord, help me through this battle."

Remember: by coming to Jesus you have taken a major, life-transforming step -- one you will never regret!

Key Scripture He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. (Philippians 1:6)
Key Thought My next step is the most important on my lifelong journey.