找一个能一起吃苦的，而不是一起享受的
找一个能一起承担的，而不是一起逃避的
找一个能对你负责的，而不是对爱情负责的
爱情是盲目的，生活是现实的
因为爱情只不过是人类为了逃避现实
而衍生的产品
为了逃避现实，我寻找爱情
为了寻找爱情，我失去真情
失去了真情，才发现早已身陷虚情.
爱，绝不是缺了就找，更不是累了就换
你以为爱情是什么？
一点点的动心，一点点的冲动，一个拥抱一个吻？
天真的人，日剧看多了，痞子蔡的文章看多了。
这也许是爱情的一部分，但绝对不是大部分
爱情的主体是生活，一起生活
你能陪她一时的难过，但你能陪她承受所有的压力吗？
你能给她身体的温度，但你能给她生活的方向吗？
你可曾想象当热情褪去，
拥抱对你已经没有任何吸引力
你们如何走下去？
距离是真爱的考验，由时间作为答案
为了你深爱的人，请做出点牺牲，守住你们的爱情
否则怎么能谈得上真正的爱情
你可以忘记以前的誓言，但要记住自己的真心。
扪心自问，你是否爱的那么深？
你愿意让两个人都受伤吗？
爱，绝不是缺了就找，更不是累了就换
生活不是一个人好好的活
是两个人如何一起好好过
但是一些客观的原因，现实中你们目前还不能在一起
难道你就这样轻易放弃，而委曲求全了吗？
难道你就不能为爱守侯吗？
你允许自己的目光如此短浅，而只看见眼前的快乐吗？
一生就这样的走完吗？
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
你晓得吗？
●女生的心
常常因為你的小体贴而感动，如果你一直对她好，她可能就会喜欢你。
女生的感情很丰富，喜欢你，会毫无保留的付出，天真的认为有一天你就会懂。
女生的心很容易受伤，所以不轻易說出口，假如期望落空了，伤心难过很不好受。
女生的心很倔強，总希望你先说，
如果你也犹豫不決，或许就这样错过，再來后悔为何当初不说。
●男生的心
男生的心很脆弱，常常因为妳的小动作而心碎，如果妳一直若即若离，我怎么敢喜欢妳。
男生的心思很细密，喜欢妳，會不计一切的付出，单纯的以为妳会懂得珍惜。
男生的爱很不容易说出口，因为一旦说出口，或许再也沒有或许了，彼此悲伤见面真的很不好受。
男生的心很懦弱，总怕伤心而紧閉双唇。
或许，一打開双唇尽吐心中的话后，就会后悔当初为何不乖乖沉静在那片刻的幸福中...
●男生要的,女生要的
当男生要的，只是一个想保护她的感觉時；女生会去做的，就是一种去照顾他的感觉。
当男生要给她美好的未來而打拼時；女生要的，就是你给她多一点的安全感。
当男生觉得，她不切实际时；女生要的，可能只是一句承诺。
当男生有点承受不住，她所给的东西時；女生觉得，她是给你一点回馈。
当男生觉得，她很烦时；女生要的，只是要你多注意她。
当男生觉得，她多情時；女生只是想，不让你心存怀疑。
当男生觉得，她老是一直打电话，告诉你她的现況時；女生只是不想让你担心。
当男生觉得，她总是喜欢呼朋唤友时；女生只是想把你的好，告诉她的朋友，她过的很好。
也许，在付出的时候，並不知道对方要的是什么，
只好把自己想要的模式套在给他的東西上，
也许对方也不知道你要的是什么。把你要的告诉他吧！
有些人比较木纳，有话直说，也许会吓到你，他须要时间学习；
有些人比较明，会适当反应。
可是他们都一样，希望得到的也只是个机会。
也许，他给的东西对你來说，是负荷，
但是，给他个机会给你个机会，告诉他吧！
在真爱的路上，付出的出发点，都只是为对方好，
如果你心存怀疑，就是对自己怀疑。
重要的是，双方如何拿捏。
也许，她給你的爱表达方式不好，
但是...那女孩会慢慢成长，只要你给她時間。
越在乎的人，反而越會对他产生误会
越在乎的人，犯错反而越不能原諒他
越在乎的人，反而对他會越不客气
越在乎的人，反而越会装做不在乎
你......... 晓得吗？
常常因為你的小体贴而感动，如果你一直对她好，她可能就会喜欢你。
女生的感情很丰富，喜欢你，会毫无保留的付出，天真的认为有一天你就会懂。
女生的心很容易受伤，所以不轻易說出口，假如期望落空了，伤心难过很不好受。
女生的心很倔強，总希望你先说，
如果你也犹豫不決，或许就这样错过，再來后悔为何当初不说。
●男生的心
男生的心很脆弱，常常因为妳的小动作而心碎，如果妳一直若即若离，我怎么敢喜欢妳。
男生的心思很细密，喜欢妳，會不计一切的付出，单纯的以为妳会懂得珍惜。
男生的爱很不容易说出口，因为一旦说出口，或许再也沒有或许了，彼此悲伤见面真的很不好受。
男生的心很懦弱，总怕伤心而紧閉双唇。
或许，一打開双唇尽吐心中的话后，就会后悔当初为何不乖乖沉静在那片刻的幸福中...
●男生要的,女生要的
当男生要的，只是一个想保护她的感觉時；女生会去做的，就是一种去照顾他的感觉。
当男生要给她美好的未來而打拼時；女生要的，就是你给她多一点的安全感。
当男生觉得，她不切实际时；女生要的，可能只是一句承诺。
当男生有点承受不住，她所给的东西時；女生觉得，她是给你一点回馈。
当男生觉得，她很烦时；女生要的，只是要你多注意她。
当男生觉得，她多情時；女生只是想，不让你心存怀疑。
当男生觉得，她老是一直打电话，告诉你她的现況時；女生只是不想让你担心。
当男生觉得，她总是喜欢呼朋唤友时；女生只是想把你的好，告诉她的朋友，她过的很好。
也许，在付出的时候，並不知道对方要的是什么，
只好把自己想要的模式套在给他的東西上，
也许对方也不知道你要的是什么。把你要的告诉他吧！
有些人比较木纳，有话直说，也许会吓到你，他须要时间学习；
有些人比较明，会适当反应。
可是他们都一样，希望得到的也只是个机会。
也许，他给的东西对你來说，是负荷，
但是，给他个机会给你个机会，告诉他吧！
在真爱的路上，付出的出发点，都只是为对方好，
如果你心存怀疑，就是对自己怀疑。
重要的是，双方如何拿捏。
也许，她給你的爱表达方式不好，
但是...那女孩会慢慢成长，只要你给她時間。
越在乎的人，反而越會对他产生误会
越在乎的人，犯错反而越不能原諒他
越在乎的人，反而对他會越不客气
越在乎的人，反而越会装做不在乎
你......... 晓得吗？
關於愛的故事
有一晚，男友問女友︰「如果有個條件更好的男人追求妳，妳…會走嗎？」
女友堅定地說不會，但男友似乎很不相信。
於是，女友寫了以下的故事給男友︰
從前一位小和尚問老和尚：「甚麼是愛情？」
老和尚叫小和尚走向麥田，然後摘下一顆最大的麥，但絕對不能回頭，只能摘一顆。
小和尚走著走著，發現一顆看起來很大的麥，但他心想前面的可能有更大，因此沒有給摘下來。他抱著這個想法一直向前走，沒想到已經走完了整個麥田，但他雙手空空如也。
老和尚就跟小和尚說：「這就是愛情了。」
每個人都跟小和尚一樣，心想真的得到最好的，但沒想到時間一幌，人生已經終結。在我們人生中，總有些人比較好，條件很優厚，只是剛錯過了時間。或許會可惜，或許會悔恨，若干年後你可能會想怎麼當年瞎了眼嫁給那笨蛋？
可是，如果人生不斷的追求「最完美」，便會永遠沉淪在追求當中，看著緣份一次次的溜走。
情侶，最好的不一定合適；但能夠合適的已經是最好。
女友說︰「你在合適的時間出現，做了合適的事，在我來說已經是無可取替的好了。」
女友堅定地說不會，但男友似乎很不相信。
於是，女友寫了以下的故事給男友︰
從前一位小和尚問老和尚：「甚麼是愛情？」
老和尚叫小和尚走向麥田，然後摘下一顆最大的麥，但絕對不能回頭，只能摘一顆。
小和尚走著走著，發現一顆看起來很大的麥，但他心想前面的可能有更大，因此沒有給摘下來。他抱著這個想法一直向前走，沒想到已經走完了整個麥田，但他雙手空空如也。
老和尚就跟小和尚說：「這就是愛情了。」
每個人都跟小和尚一樣，心想真的得到最好的，但沒想到時間一幌，人生已經終結。在我們人生中，總有些人比較好，條件很優厚，只是剛錯過了時間。或許會可惜，或許會悔恨，若干年後你可能會想怎麼當年瞎了眼嫁給那笨蛋？
可是，如果人生不斷的追求「最完美」，便會永遠沉淪在追求當中，看著緣份一次次的溜走。
情侶，最好的不一定合適；但能夠合適的已經是最好。
女友說︰「你在合適的時間出現，做了合適的事，在我來說已經是無可取替的好了。」
女孩最在乎什么，说的太对了
1.女孩子并不在乎你有没有钱，她在乎的是你会不会发奋努力改变现状；
2.女孩子并不在乎与你生活在一起会遇到困难，她在乎的是你会不会迎难而上，不逃避；
3.女孩子并不在乎你长得有多帅，她在乎的是你能不能给她足够的安全感；
4.女孩子并不在乎你跟你的异性朋友有多好，她在乎的是你能不能一心一意对她好；
5.女孩子并不在乎你送她的礼物有多贵，她在乎的是你会不会时常给她个惊喜；
6.女孩子并不在乎你的志向有多远大，她在乎的是你是不是一个老实做人、踏实做事的人；
7.女孩子并不在乎你有多浪漫，她在乎的是能不能从生活的点滴中感受到你的爱；
8.女孩子并不在乎你的人可以每时每刻都陪在她身边，她在乎的是你的心可以无时无刻不想着她；
9.女孩子并不在乎你在物质生活上给她多大的满足，她在乎的往往是一句窝心的话，那似乎比什么都重要；
10.女孩子并不在乎你现在的境况如何，她在乎的是你能不能让她看到你的未来；
11.女孩子并不在乎你跟她的关系有多亲密，她在乎的是你会不会负责到底；
12.女孩子并不在乎可以分享你的快乐，她在乎的是可不可以分担你的忧愁；
13.女孩子并不在乎跟你在一起吃苦，她在乎的是陪你走到最后的是不是她。
2.女孩子并不在乎与你生活在一起会遇到困难，她在乎的是你会不会迎难而上，不逃避；
3.女孩子并不在乎你长得有多帅，她在乎的是你能不能给她足够的安全感；
4.女孩子并不在乎你跟你的异性朋友有多好，她在乎的是你能不能一心一意对她好；
5.女孩子并不在乎你送她的礼物有多贵，她在乎的是你会不会时常给她个惊喜；
6.女孩子并不在乎你的志向有多远大，她在乎的是你是不是一个老实做人、踏实做事的人；
7.女孩子并不在乎你有多浪漫，她在乎的是能不能从生活的点滴中感受到你的爱；
8.女孩子并不在乎你的人可以每时每刻都陪在她身边，她在乎的是你的心可以无时无刻不想着她；
9.女孩子并不在乎你在物质生活上给她多大的满足，她在乎的往往是一句窝心的话，那似乎比什么都重要；
10.女孩子并不在乎你现在的境况如何，她在乎的是你能不能让她看到你的未来；
11.女孩子并不在乎你跟她的关系有多亲密，她在乎的是你会不会负责到底；
12.女孩子并不在乎可以分享你的快乐，她在乎的是可不可以分担你的忧愁；
13.女孩子并不在乎跟你在一起吃苦，她在乎的是陪你走到最后的是不是她。
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Words From My Heart
Finally,i got the nerve to post something today...
Yesterday was awful but the past 2 days was much more awful but i'm very happy that i finally know what i really wanted.
I realized I was too selfish without informing anyone that i have to be alone and give myself a little time to think what is best and what is the most important in my life.
But first,i still want to apologize to my best friend-Ting2. I know she is the one who was very worry about me. Not seeing a day is like a weird day for her. she was probably just freaking out like " oh my God, where the hell she's going? Dis she doing just find ? what am i going to do? why she didn't answer my call? Why she off her phone? "
Maybe, she'll just totally gone mad and pissing off!. Sorry Ting... I'm really sorry. That day was a great day for me to be alone. You know i like rain especially when it is March... So, i made up my mind to go to the place which i think is very good to think,to refresh and just to give myself a break. Thanks God, i think a lot.
And For Sam,i'm sorry too. i know you probably thinking " is she going out with him again? Oh my God! Do i did something wrong last night? where the hell she's going? Why i can't call her? I knew your first reaction will be like going out with him cause the faith you've with me is not strong enough to ensure that i'll never betrayed you. Thats you! from the beginning till the end. Never change and still so doubting.
For mom, i know she's not too worry about me because she was busy with her shop and not really care about me since the shop is opened. but nevermind,i'm used too it. I never had the negative thinking about you cause you always did what is best for me . Thanks MOM.
And For Dad... hmm,he's the one who is having the greatest faith in myself. He never doubt whatever i do, he never worried about who i meet and who i talk to and even where i'll be. thanks Dad for the faith you have in me. I promise i'll stay cute and be a good girl. Stay Cool too! :)
Now,its time to convey what is on my mind. lets start with the family first. God is first but i know He knows what i'm doing. Seems so hard to leave this family when i;m thinking i'm going to leave this home someday. I don't know when will that "someday " be but perhaps its coming soon. This home gives so much memories to me. My friends had been here,my boyfriend... and slowly one by one is leaving this home, First start with my eldest sister and then me...What i trying to say is i'm worry about my mom and my dad. They had been working so hard at shop and i know they are tired once they come back home so i hope i made their work easy by make sure i did my "housekeeping " everyday.but who is going to replace me when i'm not here? My brother? oh no, its like its very impossible for him to sweeps the floor, to mop the floor. Just looking at his bedroom and you'll know what i mean. he didn't even care about his bedroom's cleanliness... and now we have to talk about house? FAINT!every night i pray,he will realize what life is all about. Not just the games and his GF! Oh God, please send his the alarm or sms or call to ask him change....
Second, my study...I want to be a doctor... I'm thinking if only i got the money,everything will like "tap" (clap your hand) but not, this is me, i'm a middle class person. i lived a life which is just enough to live. I got 6 A's and so what? do i get the right like any other malay students? NO, this life is so unfair! I'm not smart, if you said i'm smart, i answer you that i'm not smart. i'm not born to be genius not even to get A without working hard. i get every knowledge by reading,do revision and memorizing and i'm not the one who can get straight A without revision every chapter at least one weeks before any exam.So, please... the government got to do something on this. God, help me, guide me...
third,relationship. I went to Mesilau that day. its not raining there but its a gloomy day. its like the day was having the same mood with me. We both sad and we both wanted to cry but we don't cry. we hang on and stay tough! Sam,there are a lot of problem between us. either you realize it or not there are a lot of problems between us!. i know you still worry about my relationship with him. You ask me did i called him recently? did i go out with him? Did i meet him?So what if i called him? so what if i sms with him? and so what if i go out with him? you jealous? If you keep on worry about my relationship with him , leave me! this is not our relationship is going to continue if you continue to check me... I know what i do and i know what makes you feel hurt but you just can't stop me from finding him just because you scares something is going to happen between us. You gotta trust me. You said you trust me, but what have you did to me? you treat me like a kid. You doubt who i am sms with and you doubt everything when it comes to him. Please, i have enough of it.He is my first love, i admit i still can't forget him. If you ask me, if i still love him. Honestly i admit i still love him! there is no way i can forget him by taking one year or just 2 years. I'm sorry, i can't do it. You may think i'm a liar when i said i still love him. but don't you see i've changed a lot because of you. I'm putting much much much efforts to forget him. My consciousness is still good,working. I know when i talk to him, i can talk like i used to when i'm with him, i can't look the way i used to look at him. I know all of that. I know all the barrier between a friend and a boyfriend!and everytime we argue,please don't let other people involved in our problem. You know what i mean. this is our problem, so solve it yourself. Don't let other people worry about you,especially your aunt. think about it. and then the last thing is about your mom. i don't want to repeat this but strictly i want to say i wont respect someone who is don't respect me at all. if you said your mom is like that, so do i, i'm like this.
I know there a lot of thing that i can satisfy you. I'm not pretty, i;m not cute. But all i can promise you is that i am sincere,i'm honest everytime i am with you and i precious this relationship. I know we've been through a lot of thing but this is not the best reason to let me stay by your side. Lastly, i love you. You know i love you. although i didn't tell you that i love you much often as you do but deep in my heart there is always a love for you. I beg you not to let me suffer anymore. Please it hurts me so much.
Love,
Sharon Lim
Yesterday was awful but the past 2 days was much more awful but i'm very happy that i finally know what i really wanted.
I realized I was too selfish without informing anyone that i have to be alone and give myself a little time to think what is best and what is the most important in my life.
But first,i still want to apologize to my best friend-Ting2. I know she is the one who was very worry about me. Not seeing a day is like a weird day for her. she was probably just freaking out like " oh my God, where the hell she's going? Dis she doing just find ? what am i going to do? why she didn't answer my call? Why she off her phone? "
Maybe, she'll just totally gone mad and pissing off!. Sorry Ting... I'm really sorry. That day was a great day for me to be alone. You know i like rain especially when it is March... So, i made up my mind to go to the place which i think is very good to think,to refresh and just to give myself a break. Thanks God, i think a lot.
And For Sam,i'm sorry too. i know you probably thinking " is she going out with him again? Oh my God! Do i did something wrong last night? where the hell she's going? Why i can't call her? I knew your first reaction will be like going out with him cause the faith you've with me is not strong enough to ensure that i'll never betrayed you. Thats you! from the beginning till the end. Never change and still so doubting.
For mom, i know she's not too worry about me because she was busy with her shop and not really care about me since the shop is opened. but nevermind,i'm used too it. I never had the negative thinking about you cause you always did what is best for me . Thanks MOM.
And For Dad... hmm,he's the one who is having the greatest faith in myself. He never doubt whatever i do, he never worried about who i meet and who i talk to and even where i'll be. thanks Dad for the faith you have in me. I promise i'll stay cute and be a good girl. Stay Cool too! :)
Now,its time to convey what is on my mind. lets start with the family first. God is first but i know He knows what i'm doing. Seems so hard to leave this family when i;m thinking i'm going to leave this home someday. I don't know when will that "someday " be but perhaps its coming soon. This home gives so much memories to me. My friends had been here,my boyfriend... and slowly one by one is leaving this home, First start with my eldest sister and then me...What i trying to say is i'm worry about my mom and my dad. They had been working so hard at shop and i know they are tired once they come back home so i hope i made their work easy by make sure i did my "housekeeping " everyday.but who is going to replace me when i'm not here? My brother? oh no, its like its very impossible for him to sweeps the floor, to mop the floor. Just looking at his bedroom and you'll know what i mean. he didn't even care about his bedroom's cleanliness... and now we have to talk about house? FAINT!every night i pray,he will realize what life is all about. Not just the games and his GF! Oh God, please send his the alarm or sms or call to ask him change....
Second, my study...I want to be a doctor... I'm thinking if only i got the money,everything will like "tap" (clap your hand) but not, this is me, i'm a middle class person. i lived a life which is just enough to live. I got 6 A's and so what? do i get the right like any other malay students? NO, this life is so unfair! I'm not smart, if you said i'm smart, i answer you that i'm not smart. i'm not born to be genius not even to get A without working hard. i get every knowledge by reading,do revision and memorizing and i'm not the one who can get straight A without revision every chapter at least one weeks before any exam.So, please... the government got to do something on this. God, help me, guide me...
third,relationship. I went to Mesilau that day. its not raining there but its a gloomy day. its like the day was having the same mood with me. We both sad and we both wanted to cry but we don't cry. we hang on and stay tough! Sam,there are a lot of problem between us. either you realize it or not there are a lot of problems between us!. i know you still worry about my relationship with him. You ask me did i called him recently? did i go out with him? Did i meet him?So what if i called him? so what if i sms with him? and so what if i go out with him? you jealous? If you keep on worry about my relationship with him , leave me! this is not our relationship is going to continue if you continue to check me... I know what i do and i know what makes you feel hurt but you just can't stop me from finding him just because you scares something is going to happen between us. You gotta trust me. You said you trust me, but what have you did to me? you treat me like a kid. You doubt who i am sms with and you doubt everything when it comes to him. Please, i have enough of it.He is my first love, i admit i still can't forget him. If you ask me, if i still love him. Honestly i admit i still love him! there is no way i can forget him by taking one year or just 2 years. I'm sorry, i can't do it. You may think i'm a liar when i said i still love him. but don't you see i've changed a lot because of you. I'm putting much much much efforts to forget him. My consciousness is still good,working. I know when i talk to him, i can talk like i used to when i'm with him, i can't look the way i used to look at him. I know all of that. I know all the barrier between a friend and a boyfriend!and everytime we argue,please don't let other people involved in our problem. You know what i mean. this is our problem, so solve it yourself. Don't let other people worry about you,especially your aunt. think about it. and then the last thing is about your mom. i don't want to repeat this but strictly i want to say i wont respect someone who is don't respect me at all. if you said your mom is like that, so do i, i'm like this.
I know there a lot of thing that i can satisfy you. I'm not pretty, i;m not cute. But all i can promise you is that i am sincere,i'm honest everytime i am with you and i precious this relationship. I know we've been through a lot of thing but this is not the best reason to let me stay by your side. Lastly, i love you. You know i love you. although i didn't tell you that i love you much often as you do but deep in my heart there is always a love for you. I beg you not to let me suffer anymore. Please it hurts me so much.
Love,
Sharon Lim
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Again
Tonight, i cried again... i don't know how to describe my feeling right now.... and i don't understand what i actually wanted for myself... but i think at least my bf can help me on that... but em, i guess he's not going to do so...haih, does boys always like that? they just want to see how cute you are, how pretty you are and how beautiful and even worst how sexy you are... sometimes,i think about how and why i have to be like this. at first, i should just get over it and just pick the new one... yeah,because they don't even appreciate you. all they know is to comment and keep on saying you should do this on your that, do that on your this and act like this when people say like this... I thought he's not that type but after all what I've been through,plus tonight, i know who he is becoming of... its pissing me off... my heart broken... its like it being punch into a hole.what really people are becoming of when you are just this? i mean i'm just "this", and i cant be " that "...
I might being ungrateful right now but what i feel cant stop myself from saying some ungrateful like this. Do i have to put much efforts on something like that? Do i have to? Now i know that " sincere " is not just the element that you need in relationship. they sometimes need satisfaction. I'm 18 and i think its normal to think of the negative side right now... i always jealous and proud of my friends cause they are having such a big boobs... you know what i mean? and i do have pretty peer that loved by everyone but i dont know how their relationship are but this female booster things is just not my style....Today, my bf keep telling me what is lack in myself... i cant get over it... maybe he's not the one for me and yes maybe i should just let him go.
At first,
he's the one who is saying that he is okay with " this "
Things change and people change,
He is starting to ask for "that"
and i said i just cant be "that"
cause "this" is me and "that" is her,
and so, i said, you can have " that "
and please let me go!
I might being ungrateful right now but what i feel cant stop myself from saying some ungrateful like this. Do i have to put much efforts on something like that? Do i have to? Now i know that " sincere " is not just the element that you need in relationship. they sometimes need satisfaction. I'm 18 and i think its normal to think of the negative side right now... i always jealous and proud of my friends cause they are having such a big boobs... you know what i mean? and i do have pretty peer that loved by everyone but i dont know how their relationship are but this female booster things is just not my style....Today, my bf keep telling me what is lack in myself... i cant get over it... maybe he's not the one for me and yes maybe i should just let him go.
At first,
he's the one who is saying that he is okay with " this "
Things change and people change,
He is starting to ask for "that"
and i said i just cant be "that"
cause "this" is me and "that" is her,
and so, i said, you can have " that "
and please let me go!
Friday, March 5, 2010
hi guys, i'm here to post something. I hope you guys can leave some comments. So that i know how's your opinions.
Today,when i took dinner with my mom along with my little brother, we talked and discussed something about my future. You might ask why where is my dad... Hee,my dad always take his dinner earlier than anyone of us. Its kinda habit for him... Okay.continue my story. When we ate, i tell mom how scary i am because the SPM results is coming out and its on a date,six days left. My mom said "you'd study and did your best. Besides,you spend most of your time to study,why can't you get good grades?" i was like ... Yeah,mom was right,why i'm freaking scared? I think its common and i believe everyone scares too... Then suddenly,she talked about my boyfriend. She said when i'm going to marry him,i'll know how hard to earn money and what life really is. My head switched to what my best friend had told me yesterday and this evening. Then,i said i'm not going to marry him until every problems that we'd faced are settled. And i added if i really get the chance to study at the unitesity and found someone brilliant and greater than him as well as falling in love with the guy i've met,i'll leave him... Then,my mom was like"why you have to couple with him if you don't want to marry him?" is not that i don't want to marry him,is i'm not guarantee... Things change and people always change. In fact,me and him have to get through a lot of obstacles and circumstances. No one know if we can be together till that day when i'm going to walking through the aisle and say "i do". Then , i replied my mom"mom,i know you like him and i know how much you wish i can marry to him. And i know you care what people are talking about us. Yes,he was always here and everyone saw i'm with him,but it doesn't mean i have to be with him and guarantee and just lock myself to be his forever. I have my right. You think i have to wait and just marry the guy who comes to house and discuss about the engagement and proposal like you used to when you were young? We don't have that tradition now... I'm me,i have right." after i finished my words,i realized how over i am and i saw mom don't wish to continue the conversation already. I hurt her. Because thats how my mom get married. My mom didn't couple with my dad for a long time. They just did the traditional one. My heart was aching, and i can see how bad my mom feel...
See,me and my mom talked a lot about this and its like today is the thousand times... And no wonder i get mad when we talked about this... Because mom insists to her decision,but so do i. I hope she understands my condition. I'm happy that my mom blesses my relationship with him but i've to admit i can't stand any longer if his mother keep talking my bad thing as if i did a big big mistakes. His mother keeps on having a bad impression about me... And everytime there is a problem,i'm the one who has to bare the pain. Even my boyfriend didn't stand by my side... I know why he did that because thats his mother but people makes mistakes,so do his mother... Why he didn't corrected her... Haih, everytime i prayed to God.. I shared and i let him decide the time and the solution. I'm hoping so that God gives a way for this problem. But i guess the time haven't come yet. I afraid when God prepares the way, i'm on my way to give up cause its very hard to endure all the pain...
Mom,i hope you understand me. I'm so sorry for being rude to you. I love you mom,a lot...forgive me.
Today,when i took dinner with my mom along with my little brother, we talked and discussed something about my future. You might ask why where is my dad... Hee,my dad always take his dinner earlier than anyone of us. Its kinda habit for him... Okay.continue my story. When we ate, i tell mom how scary i am because the SPM results is coming out and its on a date,six days left. My mom said "you'd study and did your best. Besides,you spend most of your time to study,why can't you get good grades?" i was like ... Yeah,mom was right,why i'm freaking scared? I think its common and i believe everyone scares too... Then suddenly,she talked about my boyfriend. She said when i'm going to marry him,i'll know how hard to earn money and what life really is. My head switched to what my best friend had told me yesterday and this evening. Then,i said i'm not going to marry him until every problems that we'd faced are settled. And i added if i really get the chance to study at the unitesity and found someone brilliant and greater than him as well as falling in love with the guy i've met,i'll leave him... Then,my mom was like"why you have to couple with him if you don't want to marry him?" is not that i don't want to marry him,is i'm not guarantee... Things change and people always change. In fact,me and him have to get through a lot of obstacles and circumstances. No one know if we can be together till that day when i'm going to walking through the aisle and say "i do". Then , i replied my mom"mom,i know you like him and i know how much you wish i can marry to him. And i know you care what people are talking about us. Yes,he was always here and everyone saw i'm with him,but it doesn't mean i have to be with him and guarantee and just lock myself to be his forever. I have my right. You think i have to wait and just marry the guy who comes to house and discuss about the engagement and proposal like you used to when you were young? We don't have that tradition now... I'm me,i have right." after i finished my words,i realized how over i am and i saw mom don't wish to continue the conversation already. I hurt her. Because thats how my mom get married. My mom didn't couple with my dad for a long time. They just did the traditional one. My heart was aching, and i can see how bad my mom feel...
See,me and my mom talked a lot about this and its like today is the thousand times... And no wonder i get mad when we talked about this... Because mom insists to her decision,but so do i. I hope she understands my condition. I'm happy that my mom blesses my relationship with him but i've to admit i can't stand any longer if his mother keep talking my bad thing as if i did a big big mistakes. His mother keeps on having a bad impression about me... And everytime there is a problem,i'm the one who has to bare the pain. Even my boyfriend didn't stand by my side... I know why he did that because thats his mother but people makes mistakes,so do his mother... Why he didn't corrected her... Haih, everytime i prayed to God.. I shared and i let him decide the time and the solution. I'm hoping so that God gives a way for this problem. But i guess the time haven't come yet. I afraid when God prepares the way, i'm on my way to give up cause its very hard to endure all the pain...
Mom,i hope you understand me. I'm so sorry for being rude to you. I love you mom,a lot...forgive me.
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