She Falls For You

She has nothing left to say
Not a spark worth fighting for
and it's killing her to let him go
Though chasing another makes him already gone
She cries out for him at night
No longer is he holding her side
holding her hand
Even dropped her heart
Amongst others in his storm
False hope he'd ever care for her
She left the light on downstairs
So he'd let himself in
Woke up each time
Falling for him further,
dissappointment entwined
She has nothing left to say
And so he let's her go
Unable to hear her heart screaming
his name
On her lips
No matter who she talks to
So she holds her breath
With nothing more to say
They let their friendship fall away

Friend

Where will I go, I just don't know,
when my heart is heavy and feeling low.
Will I chase after that rainbows end?
or find sweet comfort with a friend.


For storms will gather, storms will go
but theres one thing that I know...
Sharing moments here with you,
my sky is bright and always blue.


So I'll just sit here and stay a while
you make me laugh, you make me smile.
You make my heart take wings and fly,
each time we're together, you and I....

Listen and please don't say a word.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

Follow Directions

Read James 1:19–25

Jeff was anxious to get the baby’s walker assembled. There was a game starting on TV, but a promise was a promise. He quickly skimmed the directions and laid them aside. “This will be a piece of cake!” he announced with glee.

It was not until he heard the seat snap into place that he realized something was not right. The seat was on backwards. No matter how hard he tried he could not separate the pieces. It was at that point he saw the warning on the label: Read all directions carefully before beginning assembly. Locking wing nuts used! Jeff had a sinking feeling that he had blown it.

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says (James 1:22).

Many times we read God’s Word and do not pay attention to what it says. We act like life will be self-explanatory. However, some actions in life bring irreversible consequences. Let us not wait for that sinking feeling to realize we need to read God’s directions more carefully—and do what His Word says.

Challenge for Today: Do not just read the Bible out of habit. Read to understand, and follow through on what God is saying.

By the name of Our Lord,Jesus Christ, I post.

ATTITUDE

The 92 year-old petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with her hair fashionably coifed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today.

Her husband of 70 years passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready. As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. "I love it," she stated with the enthusiasm of an 8-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy.

"Mrs. Jones, you haven't seen the room . . . just wait."

"That doesn't have anything to do with it," she replied.

"Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged. It's how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. It's a decision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice. I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open, I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I have stored away just for this time in my life. Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw from what you've put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories. And thank you for your part in filling my memory bank. I am still depositing."

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

I've learned

I've learned,
That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I've learned,
That when you're in love, it shows.

I've learned,
That just one person saying to me, "You've made my day!" makes my day.

I've learned,
That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I've learned,
That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned,
That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

I've learned,
That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I've learned,
That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned,
That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I've learned,
That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned,
That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned,
That money doesn't buy class.

I've learned,
That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned,
That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned,
That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I've learned,
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned,
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned,
That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned,
That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned,
That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I've learned,
That there's nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I've learned,
That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned,
That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned,
That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned,
That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned,
That I wish I could have told my Dad that I love him one more time before he passed away.

I've learned,
That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned,
That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've learned,
That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I've learned,
That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.

I've learned,
That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned
That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life threatening situation.

I've learned,
That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

I've learned,
To let go of you when it doesn't has to be that way.

I've learned,
To Let God leads my way in whatever i may not know..

LET GO, LET GOD

I release and allow God's magnificence to flow through me.
This little phrase is a powerful statement of Truth: Let go, let God. I know that when I cling to what I perceive as a problem, my mind races to try to fix it. In this mode, I am working the problem instead of allowing the solution. By releasing my grip, I allow divine wisdom to flow freely within me.

Let go, let God, isn't about giving up; it is about going to the Source. Rather than casting my hands up in despair, I open my heart and mind and go within in prayer. In the silence, the answers I have been chasing rise to the surface easily. Miracles occur.

When I step out of the way and allow divine guidance to flow, I unleash the wisdom of God within me.

I can do nothing on my own. As I hear, I judge; and my judgment is just, because I seek to do not my own will but the will of him who sent me.--John 5:30

Let us I release and allow God's magnificence to flow through us.Amen.

By the name of Jesus Christ, i post.

God's Grace

I did not know His love before
The way I know it now
I could not see my need for Him
My pride would not allow.
I had it all, without a care
The “self-sufficient” lie
My path was smooth, my sea was still
Not a cloud was in my sky.
I thought I knew His love for me
I thought I’d seen His grace
I thought I did not need to grow
I thought I’d found my place.
But then the way grew rough and dark
The storm clouds quickly rolled
The waves began to rock my ship
I found I had no hold.

The ship that I had built myself
Was made of foolish pride
It fell apart and left me bare
With nowhere else to hide.
I had no strength or faith to face
The trials that lay ahead
And so I simply spoke His name
And bowed my weary head.

His loving arms enveloped me
And then He helped me stand
He said, “You still must face this storm
But I will hold your hand.”
So through the dark and lonely night
He guided me through pain
I could not see the light of day
Or when I’d smile again.

Yet through the pain and endless tears
My faith began to grow
I could not see it at the time
But my light began to glow.
I saw God’s love in a brand new light
His grace and mercy, too.
For only when all self was gone
Could Jesus’ love shine through.
Haleluyah, God is the best...

By the name of Jesus Christ,i post.

God Said

I asked God to take away my pain.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said . . .
Yes, finally you have the idea.

By The name of Jesus Christ,I post.

Pray No Matter What

Psalm 42:11 and 43:5
"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God."

Many people woke up this morning wondering if they will ever be able to praise God. Some are facing earthquakes and death, but many others are facing the separation and pain which keeps them from God. and the saddest thing was regarding the words " Allah" that causes many churches were disturbed.And yet, we have so many reasons to praise, so many reasons to declare His goodness and grace. Jesus told us we would have troubles in this world but then said, "But take heart! I have overcome the world" (John 16:33). Through all the confusion, anger and doubt, He is still our "refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble" (Psalm 46:1).

Let us pray that God will use these words to minister in a mighty way today. Pray they will find their way to those who are in great need. We all have reason for hope. He will never leave us, will never stop calling our name. Let's resolve to face our trials, no matter how great, and confidently proclaim "I will yet praise!" Amen.


By the name of The Lord,i post.

Seed and Soil

Seed and Soil

Read Matthew 13:18–23

A person does not have to know much about gardening to realize the importance of preparing the soil. It is hard work to loosen the ground, break up the clods, add peat moss, and work it in. Finally, with the soil loose, moist and rich, the seeds can be planted with an expectation of a colorful harvest. It would be easier to simply throw the seed onto the hard weedy ground but the outcome would likely be quite different. The difference is not it the seed; it is in the soil.

But the one who received the seed that fell on good soil is the man who hears the word and understands it. He produces a crop yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown (Matthew 13:23).

Just like in gardening, our hearts can be rich and moist or hard and dry. The quality of our hearts will make a difference in the impact the Word has in our lives. The Word is powerful but our hearts must be prepared to receive. What are you doing to prepare your heart to hear God’s Word?

Prayer Suggestion: Father, I want my heart to be like the good soil. Please help me to keep my heart open to You.

By the name of Jesus Christ, i post.

Love as a New Way of Life 1

38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord ( Romans 8:38-39 )

Guys, talking about love, i'd never said " I Love You " to my both of my parents... Whenever their birthday is just around the corner, all i can do is buy a cake for them and promise myself that i won't let them down... Have you ever try to say those three words to your parents? hee, i bet most of us haven't say" i love you" to our parents. how pathetic... But, i din't get to hear " i love you " from my both parents either but i knew they love me so much ... So much until no words can't describe the love they showed... But today, from this little book , titled " The Love As A Way of Life " by Gary Chapman, Gary has reminded me that God loves us no matter how we look , poor or rich, ugly or pretty, He loves us.God loves us without restraint or condition.So,whenever you fell that you're alone, you feel that no one loves you , no one cares about you... Turns to God and remember you are loved. No matter what. God loves you more than any friend can offer, any lover can offer and any best thing you had in your life.

Let us pray and thank to God for His gracious love through all. Amen.

By the name of Jesus Christ, I post.

Time for Miracles

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it (feel it)
http://www.elyricsworld.com/time_for_miracles_lyrics_adam_lambert.html
You know I can hear it (hear it)
So can you feel me feel you....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us


thanks Gary,for this song...

At the Cross

Alas! and did my Savior bleed
And did my Sovereign die?
Would He devote that sacred head
For sinners such as I?
Refrain
At the cross, at the cross where I first saw the light,
And the burden of my heart rolled away,
It was there by faith I received my sight,
And now I am happy all the day!

Thy body slain, sweet Jesus, Thine—
And bathed in its own blood—
While the firm mark of wrath divine,
His Soul in anguish stood.

Was it for crimes that I had done
He groaned upon the tree?
Amazing pity! grace unknown!
And love beyond degree!

Well might the sun in darkness hide
And shut his glories in,
When Christ, the mighty Maker died,
For man the creature’s sin.

Thus might I hide my blushing face
While His dear cross appears,
Dissolve my heart in thankfulness,
And melt my eyes to tears.

But drops of grief can ne’er repay
The debt of love I owe:
Here, Lord, I give my self away
’Tis all that I can do.

Work For It

Tell me what you can do
If i'm alone
Would you stay by my side
And tell me "dear,you're not alone. I'm here"
Would you stay here
Watch movie with pairs
Laugh by both
Pamper me...
Would you do it for me?

We may seperated by miles and miles away
We may stucked by hundreds and hundreds of confusion
But our hearts join us on every junction of misunderstanding
At every corner of dangerous
In every lackness of faith...
Would you stand by me?
Would you show me that you're mine?
Cause all i see was your madness to conquer each

If i'm yours,show me
If you love me,do as you love me
If you miss me,do as you miss me
There's a show we wish to watch on Wednesday,
Would you watch with me?

If you really need me
Would you do whatever you can
To ensure i'm caught in the middle of your love?
Would your risk whatever it might takes
To get me back?
Would you pay whatever it cost
To prove i'm really valuable to you?
Cause i don't see any of this
When we was one...

I Rather to be like this

Our love was so precious
But when it had to be so priceless although it is too valuable
I rather hurt myself to let you go...

If you loved me
Then why you acted like some kind of a creature...
If it had to be that way
I rather be your victim

Listen to me, I hate you but i love you ...
But if the three words was the only words you want to hear
I rather remain silent cause sometimes remain silent is the best answer.

Tell me what you want
Tell me what you need
Tell me what you want me to be
Tell me what you want me to say
Tell me what do i meant to you
Cause no matter what you wish...
I rather stay...

Hopeless

Raining Heavily,
And I...Speechless
Just and Fair...
No stupid love song can describe how I feel,
Sometimes the words other people say,
actions other people show
Are never good enough or real
No one will ever know how I'm feeling today
And I don't wish this to be like this in the future...


Sometimes,
I put my hopes up way too high
I thought you'd feel the same way
But Hopeless...
Now all I need to not do is cry
Because tears won't take the pain away worse.
and crying make thing

For a moment I thought you knew
For a moment I thought you cared
For a moment I thought you meant "I love you"
For a moment I thought you appreciated the love we shared
That moment conclude hopeless in the end...

What do you know anyway?
You're just a guy
Have your fun today
And tomorrow make me cry

I'll fake my smile
I'll say I'm okay
I'll be happy for a while
And be dead inside
I'll be strong
I'll be tough

I kept on calling you sweet
Little did I know
Your love is the one thing I can't beat
I just can't seem to let you go!
What a stupid lyrics...
And again...
You make me feel like such a fool
I don’t want to love you
Why did love have to be so cruel?
Why is there nothing that I can do?

Love can sometimes be great
That's something I cannot deny
But when it turns into hate
He won't be just "another guy"

He'll be the guy that broke you into pieces
He'll be the guy that made you a mess
He'll be the love that slowly ceases
After you finally confess

Listening to that song
Makes me feel like the stupidest girl alive
It made me realize that what I felt was wrong
Because I won't get you no matter how much I strive.
Because sorry just not the way it used to be.

GOD'S GLORY AND GOD'S LOVE

Many people have a hard time understanding how God's passion for His glory and God's love for us are in unity. For example, if I went around trying to show everyone how glorious and amazing I am, nobody would call that "love." This article demonstrates how God is the only one who can behave like this, and it would be the very definition of "love."

Question: What is the most loving thing that God can do for us?
Answer: The most loving thing God can do for us is to allow us to see His glory and enjoy Him forever.
Explanation: God is the ultimate satisfier of souls. Nothing that He gives you (e.g. money, fame, high self-esteem) can truly satisfy your soul, except God Himself. Because soul satisfaction is the ultimate pleasure, this is the most loving thing God can do for us.

Question: How does God satisfy our souls?
Answer: God satisfies our souls by allowing us to see His glory and be completely blown away by Him, producing extreme love for Him in us, as well as extreme happiness.

Explanation: It is more satisfying to be enthralled by someone infinitely greater than yourself than to feel really good about yourself. For example, let's say you go bowling and you bowl your highest game ever (120 pins). It might feel really good to accomplish this, but compare this to everyone at the bowling alley watching in amazement as a man bowls his first 300 game ever. Suddenly, you forget about your modest achievement because everyone at the bowling alley has just experienced something far greater and more enjoyable. Seeing this amazing accomplishment causes you to forget about yourself and to stand in awe of something truly amazing. So it is with God's glory. We will feel less happy and satisfied if God makes much of us and leads us to focus on ourselves, and we will feel far more happy and satisfied if God points us to Himself and allows us to see how infinitely glorious and amazing He is!
Question: Why do people like celebrities, professional athletes, and superheroes?
Answer: They like them because they are in awe of their beauty, talents, or super powers.

Explanation: People are not infatuated with celebrities, athletes, and superheroes because they are liked by them; they are infatuated because they are in awe of their abilities and/or characteristics. This does not mean that people will be jealous of their abilities or that they will feel bad because they lack these abilities. Most people know that they can never be half as good at basketball as Michael Jordan, so they are perfectly fine with their own level of basketball skill, and they are simply in awe of someone far greater than themselves.

Question: Why is God the ultimate superhero?
Answer: God is the ultimate superhero because He is the sum total of all admirable, glorious, and praiseworthy abilities and characteristics.
Explanation: Superman is a meager reflection of the glory of God. We cannot even begin to comprehend how powerful and glorious God is! This is why the Bible says that anyone who sees God's face will die (Exodus 33:20), because He is infinitely glorious!

Question: How does God's loving character fit in with His glory?
Answer: God's amazing love is part of what makes Him so glorious!
Explanation: The largest and most powerful display of God's glory known to man was Christ's extraordinary act of love and self-sacrifice displayed in willfully dying on the cross for our sins. Equal in glory to this was how the Father poured out His wrath, equal to countless eternal hells, on His own infinitely glorious and undeserving Son for people who have hated and rejected Him.
Question: Why do we like the fact that God loves us?

Answer #1: We don't have to feel guilty for the things we do.
Explanation: Many people like God's love because it helps them not feel guilty for doing bad things. These people often emphasize God's "unconditional love and acceptance."

Answer #2: We can go to a fictional heaven where we get every non-God thing that we've ever dreamed of, including an "unconditionally accepting" god who gives us all of the glory that is really due to him, and we can escape Hell in the process.
Explanation: This is the standard American reason for liking God.

Answer #3: We like the fact that there is a powerful being to do our bidding.
Explanation: Many people view God's purpose as being our servant. For example, God exists to help us when we need it and fix things that get messed up, and as long as we express our appreciation to Him on occasion, He is happy with us.

Answer #4: God's love for us makes us feel really special and important to Him.
Explanation: Although we are important to God (He died for us!), this should not be the focus of why we want God to love us, because it places the focus on our value and worth rather than on God's value to us.

Answer #5: We like the fact that God loves us because this allows us to have sweet fellowship with the most amazing Person in the universe, for whom we were created to eternally love and enjoy!
Explanation: This is the reason for liking God that brings Him the most glory and makes us the most satisfied!

Can We Change This World?

Its a rainy day today....
Hmm... wearing my pink jacket and i went to my mom restaurant...You know guys, i have a lot of things to share, because i think too much and i admit that i get inspiration, lesson and experiences from what i saw, i heard, i touched and i felt much more easier when it is raining... I don't believe anything such horoscope's guide and anything but i'll read them when i found it out in magazine and such... but one thing i really admit and confess is that my horoscope's element - water.... I'm pisces and yes i do like water and bath. talking about bath, hey i met Mr Spider just now, and he was like... Murmuring at me and said :" Hi, Sharon ". We meet again "... and the nerve impulse which was send to the brain making response and make me think : " Oh no, its rainy, i dont want to go bath and scared by Mr spider." And then dad came downstairs.... i was screaming for help : " Dad, please help me get rid of that " Mr "(with my fingers pointing at the spider which was huge as my palm size, imagine it ), can you? And dad was like : " Yes, I can (hearing the word " CAN " makes me happy but then..) , but i may not ( adrenaline rush, and i'm involuntarily steps out from the bathroom) ." I forced myself to enter the bathroom and said " don't scare, its just a spider"...but at the back of my mind said "just a spider? hehehe, yeah, just a spider ".... I don't enjoy my bubble time and i wished to take my bath later but in with my wet clothes and hair caused by the rain, i have to take a bath now, or else, i'll need Dr Cool Fever... hmm.... so, here it goes, i'm out of the dangerous area and wuh...... Its good to be safe again.


Now, back to my personal reflection of the day. Just like i said, its a rainy day today, and a whole day, the city is watered by a water that falls from the clouds in small drops- rain... hehehe. And yet, i saw some people asking for alcohols on the middle of a morning? and the worst part was, it was the aunt, the same person i saw last 2 days at mom's restaurant with her gangs... i have to say the saddest part helping mom at shop is to offer someone a cup of beer , holding cigar's box and give it to the people....its like killing someone...hey,alcohol is one of the most well established causes of cancer. It increases the risk of liver cancer, it increases the risk of breast cancer,it increases the risk of mouth and oesophageal (foodpipe) cancers and smoking and drinking together increases risk even more...Share something that i learned at school to you guys...

In our body, alcohol is converted into a toxic chemical called acetaldehyde. This is one the main reasons why we get hangovers.But acetaldehyde does more than give you a headache in the morning. It can cause cancer by damaging DNA and stopping our cells from repairing this damage.Acetaldehyde also causes liver cells to grow faster than normal which mean the mitosis process becomes abnormal and this causes tumor in early stage ans cancerous cell at critical stage and these regenerating cells are more likely to pick up changes in their genes that could lead to cancer.Alcohol can also increase the levels of some hormones, such as oestrogen, testosterone and insulin. which increase the risk of breast cancer.

And smoking is very famous with lung cancer. Smoking harms nearly every organ of the body and diminishes a person’s overall health. Smoking is a leading cause of cancer and of death from cancer. It causes cancers of the lung, esophagus, larynx (voice box), mouth, throat, kidney, bladder, pancreas, stomach, and cervix... I believe teacher told us a lot in this. Blacken lungs and, watery and so on... The carbon monoxide reacts with oxygen much more faster than haemoglobin, and cause us fail to produce oxyhaemoglobin instead we producing more and more carboxyhemoglobin. and this lead to insufficient oxygen to red blood cell and finally asthma come to say " Hi "...

Guys, please pray for me and my parents so that they quit from selling those stuff.It promises great profit but killing people condemn profit with what family's lost.... I shares my opinion with my best friend about this. She said : " Its not your fault, they choose to be like that." And i think : " What she said is true but where are these people wisdom ? they know how to differentiat the good and the bad but then? my friend got a phoenix tattoo for herself. Feel happy for her happiness that came from that tattoo but fell sorry for her body .

Guys, if you'e sharing the same thought with me. Imagine my shop... there are at least 4 until 8 persons will come and buy cigar or drinks alcohols. Imagine the whole city and plus the whole world. Huge success begins with a tiny efforts and lots a lots of failure and time... We can change this thing by ensure you and my generation chose to pick the good in the options... that is NO ALCOHOLS AND NO SMOKING...

Disappointed

I realized something and it makes me disappointed.
Now, i know your love isn't strong as you said,
isn't great as you said,
isn't as the way you'd promise me.
I knew i shouldn't wait and hoping for something precious between us.
Thanks for showing all,
For every promise, there is price to pay,
but for every price you pat,
it seems to be a credit,
you owe me.
And yet, you haven't done it,
You tried to make new one but now i know it was nothing for you.
i should know when a man repeats a promise again and again, he means to fail you.


Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed,
to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.
In love, it is better to know and be disappointed,
than to not know and always wonder.
Thanks for not letting me waiting,
i know now i'm nothing ,
i know now i'm so fast to be replaced ,
i know now i'm so fast to be forgot,
i know now i'm meant to be forgot,
and thanks for showing that i was so special...

It is foolish to pretend that one is fully recovered from a disappointed passion. Such wounds always leave a scar.

Was Once Yours

If You Really Love Something
Set It Free.
If It Comes Back, It's Yours,
If Not, It Wasn't Meant To Be.

Its hard to pretend
you love someone
when you don't
but its harder to pretend
that you don't love someone
when you really do.

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated,
it will flow back and soften
and purify the heart.

Forget the times
he walked by,
Forget the times
he made you cry,
Forget the times
he spoke your name,
Remember now
your not the same.
Forget the times
he held your hand,
Forget the sweet things
if you can,
Forget the times
& Don't pretend,
Remember now
he's just your friend.

Sometimes it's hard
to love someone
because you're so
afraid of losing them

Never be sad for what is over,
just be glad that it was once yours.

HMM...

Broke My Heart

If You Really
Love Something
Set It Free.
If It Comes Back, It's Yours,
If Not, It Wasn't Meant To Be.

I don't miss him,
I miss who
I thought he was.

You broke me,
you broke my heart,
you broke everything!
You turned my world upside down
and inside out,
BUT I know it was worth it,
for that one moment of love we had,
it's a shame it went bad.....

The hottest love
has the coldest end.

It takes a couple seconds
to say Hello,
but forever
to say Goodbye.

Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like
I Cried For You,
Some Day You'll Miss Me Like
I Missed You,
Some Day You'll Need Me Like
I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me
But I Won't Love You.

I’m going to smile
and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh,
so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style,
and even if it kills me
- I’m going to smile.

The hardest part
of loving someone
is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.

Another Day

As I opened up my eyes this morning the sun was in its rise again

The sky blazed with its lucid fires of blue as a tremendous mass of hilarity

And the quickening songs of the birds were as pure and true as the fresh air

While the tree’s danced everywhere in pure glory

It was a beauty glamorously revealed

A blessing meant to be; another day

And so my soul started to shine like the sky

It sang productively and delightfully as the birds

It was like the trees; dancing gloriously

It occupied my mere spirit with exhilaration

For I knew the Creator of that creation was granted; granted to us!

As everything everywhere was

It was a day; Another Day

That I knew was going to be magnificent and fruitful in every possible way

And so I heard myself, freely saying

“This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad it is,

Thank you for blessing our eyes to see this beautiful day

For giving us the health and strength to get off our beds to walk and greet

this day. Thank you! Thank you Almighty Father, for all of your blessings.

Many praise and thanks be to You for everything, In Jesus’ name, Amen.”

What I Was

When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat
But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears
Wasted On Something I Knew I Can't control.

If You Love Me Like You Told Me
Please Be Careful With My Heart.
You Can Take It, Just Don't Break It and please don't hurt it
Or My World Would Fall Apart.

You learn to like someone
when you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone
until you find out what makes them cry.

The moment I looked in your eyes.
i know....
I fell in love.
Every time I look I fall in love again.
I've looked so many times,
and have gathered so much love.
I have so much to carry with me
I don't know what to do.


Even when I pour
my heart out to you,
I'm not sure it shows,
that I love you more
than you'll ever know.

Hate is easy, Love takes Courage

If I never met you,
I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you
I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you
I wouldn't miss you,
but I did,
I do and I will.

I can live
without any friends,
any family and any money
but I can't live without you.

I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.

My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You And Now
Is In Pieces Because Of You

It hurts to breathe
because every breath I take
proves I can't live without you.

Never Say
" I love you "
if you don't really care,
never talk about feeling
if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand
if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to,
if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes
if all you do is lie.
Never say hello,
if you really mean goodbye.
If you really mean forever,
then say you will try.
Never say forever
' cause forever makes me cry.

As Part Of You Has Grown In Me,
Together Forever Shall We Be,
Never Apart Maybe In Distance
But Not In Heart.

The greatest pain that comes from love
is loving someone you can never have.

The stupidest mistake in life
is thinking the one who hurt you the most,
won't hurt you again.

Love is unconditional,
relationships are not.

For all sad words of tongue and pen,
the saddest are these,
It might have been.


To fall in love is awfully simple,
but to fall out of love is simply awful.

The worst feeling in the world
is giving all the love you have
and knowing it will never be returned.

There is one pain I often feel
which you will never know
because it is caused
by the absence of you.

The Decision

hello guys, its me again.. so, how was my day today? i can say it was a bus day at mom's restaurant today and after that i went home to meet my beloved students... Then i called his aunt, i was asking help so that i can give back his things... there are a lot of his things inside my house and i don't wish to say it here one by one, but when i picked p those things and placed it inside a box and some plastics , i realized there are to much to give it back. I already packed it up all on Sunday... 2 days has passed an i see too much that make me remind of him.... Its like a broken glass and i have to put the pieces of glass one by one... He was part of my life and of course its not as easy an ABC to forget all and to pretend like it was nothing and yet when i though of all the memory we had, i feel sad to let it go... Maybe there is another way to set things right. well of course there is another way but perhaps right now is not the good time to set things right. Maybe 2 years later and maybe 10 and even maybe 13 , i dont know. I just wish that you can have a better life and maybe find another girl to replace me in your heart.

Today, after i went back to meet my best friend, i try my best to change everything in my room (actually i started to make my room look different since Sunday). I wrapped mt table with the present paper i bought at KK on Saturday, i hide all the stuff( for instance my frame where i put a lot of my picture with him ) in a new box that i bought on Saturday, change a new position of bed, cupboard and my table, change a new windows's sheet . And i feel much much better...

I knew day after day , i might see, hear, touch and feel something that would make me remind of him. I didn't say that i din't love him anymore, No!.Its just that i don't want to feel the same way as i felt on the 3rd January 2010. Isn't it so hard to say " sorry " and ask for an apology? Instead, he acted and said like nothing happened. But that is the past, i am looking forward right now. Yang, if you are reading this, i hope you understand.

We had never contacted each other as always as before. We seldom talk,chat and even sms. Maybe today is the last day i received message from him and i want to share with you guys.


I sent this message to him ( which i write it myself ):

Dear Sam,

Sharon wants to keep you as her pieces in her life. Answer the question below honestly because Sharon wants to save it for her best memory in life.

1. If you want to pick a fruit for Sharon . What fruit would it be?

2. What do you hate the most about Sharon?

3. What do you like the most about Sharon?

4.Give one word best describe Sharon?

5.You wish to be Sharon's_________?


And this is what he replied me:

If you want to pick a fruit for Sharon . What fruit would it be?
Big Red Apple

2. What do you hate the most about Sharon?
Stoned headed, ignorant, selfish, rebellious attitude.

3. What do you like the most about Sharon?
Her passion to love me,
cry on me,
the way she smile and laugh,
the willingness to change,
hardworking,
a Christian.

4.Give one word best describe Sharon?
Duality


5.You wish to be Sharon's Life's Boymate?

and then i replied him:

Thank you :)

This is my decision and so long ......

My Heart

hi guys, hehehe. I've been writing twice to update my blog today... Rajinnya.I should be serious by now, ok... Today, right now, i want to tell you guys and also to share what i've been through in my relationship...and yes, i have to say in a relationship especially between girl and boy - companionship. Me and him had been together for years and yet we broke up twice when we were together. that Broke up was because of misunderstanding, miscommunication and a lot. For instance, he disturbed me a lot and i can't even focus on my study, he controlled me too much on what i can do and what i can't do. hmm... guys, i'd been trying to make difference in my relationship everytime we had a problem,we discussed, we shared, we laughed and yet in the middle we argued and silent for a quite sometime, but believe me making difference is not easy. Its not easy to change someone and sometimes we are the one who need to change instead of others.But i did change, there a lot of different between the past " Sharon" than the present " Sharon ". i loved him more, i showed so much love to him in term of words and actions. And he realized it too. do you want to know how was i long time ago when we were together in the first one and two years? i'm a bad girl, i admit. he can only heard me say "I love you " once in a blue moon. And when he said " i love you " i used to say " yes, i know... you don't have to say that all the time ". And he commented me that i was cool, too cool to love someone. well yeah, i was...



you see the love above? my heart had been through all of that. First, from a complete heart.



To this - a heart full of scars because of love.



To this - healing hearts.



yes, love is what you say it is. You say it sucks? yes it is. you say it sweet? yes, it is. You say it terrible? and yes it is! i talked and discussed with my mom today, we toled her about my relationship with my bf, i told what he did to me and i told what his mom said about me. And my mom felt so bad and i also told her that we'd broke up again and she said this time my decision is right. its correct... so long .... its good to be single again and yet its complicated.

Making A Dfference

guys, its the 10th January of 2010... Do you wish to make a difference in your life? its the 10th of 2010 but its not too late to make a difference, because nothing is too late until its over....Guys,according to the book i have shared in the previous page... Difference is the opportunity to take the time each day to acknowledge the beauty around us, to appreciate the amazing people who tough us, and to leave the world a better place each day through our thought, words and actions.. You know what i hope you and me are making difference each day by sharing ourself and our gifts with grace and ease with all those who come into my life...

So, here it goes the story in this book : ( i won't tell you the whole story ok? i mean from A to Z, but i'll summarize it and adapt it a little bit )

I've lived in New York city for all my seventeen years and can't imagine living anywhere else.
It was a cold November day, and New York City was still reeling from devastation of sepetember 11. All the members of my soccer team were glad to have an excuse to get out of school. It was the first game of the year and we had suffered a horrible defeat; still we were just excited to be starting a new season and a new year. We were twenty high-school girls walking and laughing through the streets of the Bronx. We knew we will having a long way to get home . To amuse ourselves and pass the time, we began to sing. Various genres of music filled the train's car, from Bob Dylan to Christina Aguilera . Eventhough only one of us could really sing, we all sang along as loudly as possible : what we lacked in musical talent we made up for on volume and enthusiasm. I wish i could freeze that moment: being with friends, feeling happy and not thinking about anything else.It was an amazing feeling that got even better as the train moved o.
suddenly, an old man entered the car from the subway platform, all our voices stopped simultaneously. The old man's clothes were tattered and his face was covered with a stubbly beard. \in his hand, he held a Styrofoam coffee cup emblazoned with " I Love NY". despite his shabby appearance, he carried himself with dignity. He spoke softly, but his voice projected through the car. " hello, ladies and gentlemen. I hope everyone is staying warm and healthy this winter. I am going to sing a couple of my favourite songs for you during your trip. please listen , and i hope you enjoy.". No one on the train looked u. Most people slid down behind their newspaper of foreign sleep but we girls watched him carefully. As his lips parted and began to sing " Joy to the World," we were carried away his eloquent voice and presence that we found ourselves chiming right in. After we had finish, we heard clapping and looked around to see that the people who had been in their own worlds a few moment before had now crossed over to ours to listen and marvel at this rare moment.and for his final song, he choose something that was sure to move everyone " God Bless America "
rag through the subway train and out of the station where we stopped. Many people left their own cars to come and see what was happening in ours - and join us. Many sang and this medley of voices and unity of spirit, was real and marvelous. Its significance became clearest to me when i noticed a woman holding a baby in her arms, singing through the tears that were streaming down her cheeks.
The power of this moment will be with me forever . A moment when a group of strangers, all New Yokers, tough and jaded, connected with a group of high-school girls and ragtag homeless person, and allowed their voices-and their hearts-to be as one.

The End.

Now guys, if you were there? would you do the same thing as the writer? really, Once we discover how to appreciate the timeless values in our daily experiences, we can enjoy the best things in life...This i personal reflection from the first story... So, make a different, to appreciate everything in our life from the small and useless values to th big and useful values...

2010 Inspiration

hi guys...
Its been so log that i didn't update my blog... Today, i don't know why i get up the nerve to write my blog again. i thought about sharing something that is very valuable to me - a book. A book that i'd bought ysterday and a book that i've been looking for so long...



This book a lovingly compiled and painstakingly profound work detailing the possibilities of the human spirit. It shoe us in story after story how we can make this world a better place-and not merely wish to do it.

Guys, do you think that a story in a book can change someone's thought , personalities ? that it can inspires you to be more happy, more confident and more caring. My answer is "YES" and if your answer is "No", then i suggest you yo stop reading this cause this is not what you trying to read... Why did i say so because even people have to depend on book to get knowledge so that they can be good in term of knowledge and upgrade themselves,so why can't a book's content change someone's thought in term of relationship?

I'm keen to read and buy this book because of my English teacher - Madam Mathilda, who had read some story inside this book that touched my heart deeply.... And, last night after i had read th introduction and acknowledgement of this book,i know i need this book.

I'm holding a very special book that i hope to carry its messages to you guys... I hope you guys can realize and forward the experience of reading to your friends....That you can use the inspiration, understanding and lovewithis these page to make your world a little bit better every day.